Thursday, August 21, 2008


Two yrs back i did my engg. n entered into so called corporate world. Right now m working as an software professional in one among those thousand MNCs. After coming out from my home town for job i saw many new things and yet to see many more. It was like a cub stepping in wide jungle for the first time. I was not aware of many things....people's behaviour, how this world reacts towards u, how to survive in abstract conditions, how to stay far from ur beloved ones. In fact many of my past experiences forced me to start writing blog so that i can share my views with u people. Past incomplete love, my mistakes, my regrets, ppl around me, good and bad things around me.

It all started when i newly joined my company..initially they conducted sum kind of training for freshers. She use to sit next to me..angelic smile with touch of simplicity, got all ingredients for a perfect
Indian girl. Yes, it was love at first sight for me...i simply use to wonder daily that how can nyone b so perfect n pure as she was :)...days passed n slowly we started talking with each other. In coming months we became good friends...yeah, that's what she use to say..we are good friends . Days converted in weeks n weeks in months...we continued sharing our thoughts n views through chatting for hours. I still miss those hours which seems to b magical at that time. I never had any girlfriend before neither it was in my list of necessary things needed to live. But god was having some other plan. After long waiting n struggle from myself one fine day i propsed her. that was the first time i was proposing ny girl. Millions of thoughts were running in ma mind at that time, but then i gathered all my strenght n said those three beautiful words. She didn't replied on that day while chatting she gave me the ans...yeah u ppl guessed it right! was "NO"...For few days i was not there in my senses..evrythin on this planet was annoying me...i was veryy depressed. Then she came n whispered in my ears that world doesn't ends here :)..we can stay as best friends forever n took very long time for me to accept her as my friend. But as it is said evrything is fair in love n war...i thought "OK god gave me sum other way to stand beside her forever...n what difference it makes if she likes me as a friend, still i have chance to wait for the answer which i wanted to listen"

....WAIT...WAIT...whole one year passed. Many things happened in between....with evry passing day my love for her became more stronger..i did whatever i can do to make her smile again...if she use to shed one drop of tear, that day i use to stay awake for whole night. As a best friend she use to share evrythin with me, whether it's personal or official n i use to suggest her evry possible solutions. Yeah that's what u can expect from a true lover n i was just behaving in that way only. Sometimes it use to become very hard for me to mantain proper balance between friendship n my feelings towards her. Many times my inner feelings for her use to overcome friendship n i use to behave in very possesive manner. Those were the times when i use to struggle a lot with myself and lot many arguments use to happen between us.

I don't like the way she was having huge guys fan following. I don't like the way she use to tell me evry other day about sum tom dick harry proposing her. I don't like the count of males in her orkut profile exceeding females. I don't like her intimacy with other male best friends. And all those dislikes use to end with sum kind of argument.

I guess it's enough fo now :)...there are lot many things to write...will continue in next post..till then bye n take care :)

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